Fic thoughts
Saturday, October 11th, 2025 13:17![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
zimenaSo, it seems my "nice" plan at the beginning of the year to write more fic has not manifested at all. I have so many thoughts, but as soon as I'm opening a document to start working on them, my brain just seems to shut down. I don't know where to start, and I'm irrationally afraid of not doing the idea justice, or not portraying the guys I admire in the way I would like. It's interesting to think about as long as it's all in my head, but shaping that into words that actually make sense over a longer period of time... that's the challenge.
It doesn't help that I've been seeing a lot of negativity around RPF lately, too. Yes, I know that you can find people who are mean about nearly any kind of writing online, and the best thing to do is just to ignore that they exist. But somehow I ended up reading some threads, and it makes me self-conscious about the things I like, and wary of sharing anything.
I know I have my safe space here, though.
The fic side of snooker fandom is practically only in Chinese, though, so sharing on AO3 feels neither safe nor meaningful. I miss the community feeling that used to be on LJ back in my footieslash days, where we'd get to know the other writers and make friends. Well, perhaps it wasn't quite like that, because that fandom had its own problems, too. But at its best, it's definitely the community I wish there would still be for my current fandom.
But, first... how do I even do that "writing" thing again?
It doesn't help that I've been seeing a lot of negativity around RPF lately, too. Yes, I know that you can find people who are mean about nearly any kind of writing online, and the best thing to do is just to ignore that they exist. But somehow I ended up reading some threads, and it makes me self-conscious about the things I like, and wary of sharing anything.
I know I have my safe space here, though.
The fic side of snooker fandom is practically only in Chinese, though, so sharing on AO3 feels neither safe nor meaningful. I miss the community feeling that used to be on LJ back in my footieslash days, where we'd get to know the other writers and make friends. Well, perhaps it wasn't quite like that, because that fandom had its own problems, too. But at its best, it's definitely the community I wish there would still be for my current fandom.
But, first... how do I even do that "writing" thing again?
