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Christmas is almost here
Christmas Eve is tomorrow.
I honestly don't know how I feel about that. I'm going to be with my cousin and his wife in Vennesla (about 20km outside of my town) over the holidays, so I think it's going to be nice.
Still... it's been strange, going into my first Christmas without my mom near me anymore. We used to always prepare a lot of stuff for the holidays - baking, special foods, decorations, traditions etc. Even though we did it less after I got older, Christmas and pre-Christmas time was always a very atmospheric time for me.
This year... I've done a lot less of this stuff. Yes, I put up some decorations, but only the ones I love most. And I didn't do anything special with baking or food, apart from buying a few Christmas type foods from the store. It's not like I miss these preparations, but it just feels... strange, going into the holiday season this year.
I've been trying to tell myself that I wouldn't feel the emptiness that much, as I'm going to be around people I care about, and it's going to be a good Christmas even though it will be different from what I'm used to. Yet... now that the holiday season is almost here, I feel almost detached from everything.
Empty. Different. Sad.
I'm about to pack a small bag because I'm going to be away for a couple of days, but I felt like writing this post first. Or maybe I just don't feel like packing? Either way, I don't want to get lost in all of these feelings, so I'm going to get the packing done... and then probably try to do nice things for the rest of the day.
❤️🎄 If I won't be here to post tomorrow, I also want to wish all of you a happy holiday season, or a Merry Christmas - whatever feels more right to you. Enjoy this special time of the year, and may it good, peaceful and full of warmth and joy and everything you wish for. 🎄❤️
I honestly don't know how I feel about that. I'm going to be with my cousin and his wife in Vennesla (about 20km outside of my town) over the holidays, so I think it's going to be nice.
Still... it's been strange, going into my first Christmas without my mom near me anymore. We used to always prepare a lot of stuff for the holidays - baking, special foods, decorations, traditions etc. Even though we did it less after I got older, Christmas and pre-Christmas time was always a very atmospheric time for me.
This year... I've done a lot less of this stuff. Yes, I put up some decorations, but only the ones I love most. And I didn't do anything special with baking or food, apart from buying a few Christmas type foods from the store. It's not like I miss these preparations, but it just feels... strange, going into the holiday season this year.
I've been trying to tell myself that I wouldn't feel the emptiness that much, as I'm going to be around people I care about, and it's going to be a good Christmas even though it will be different from what I'm used to. Yet... now that the holiday season is almost here, I feel almost detached from everything.
Empty. Different. Sad.
I'm about to pack a small bag because I'm going to be away for a couple of days, but I felt like writing this post first. Or maybe I just don't feel like packing? Either way, I don't want to get lost in all of these feelings, so I'm going to get the packing done... and then probably try to do nice things for the rest of the day.
❤️🎄 If I won't be here to post tomorrow, I also want to wish all of you a happy holiday season, or a Merry Christmas - whatever feels more right to you. Enjoy this special time of the year, and may it good, peaceful and full of warmth and joy and everything you wish for. 🎄❤️