Sigh

[zimena]

From my personal notes, this morning:

I feel so sad and hurt and broken at the moment. Summer is slowly killing me. The hot weather means I’m in constant pain, and I’m waking up nearly in tears every single morning. I have no more strength to do this. I have no idea how I’m going to survive another month or so of this. It’s been like this every day since about May, and it hurts. Every single moment of every day hurts. Sure, it’s not always as intensely painful as in the morning, but it hurts constantly anyway.

My mood is maybe half a notch better now, after a couple of painkillers and spending much of the day asleep or half-asleep on the veranda. It's still true that I've been waking up every day for a long time wondering how I'm even going to make it through the day.

Overly hot weather and me... we're not friends.

I need rain, and ten degrees less than we have now. Perhaps then I'll start to feel alive again? I hope so.

Comments

[catness]

*HUGS* Hope you get some rain, and feel better soon!

I hate hot weather too, even though it doesn't affect me as strongly as you. Btw, you don't have air conditioner at home? It really helps, at least when staying indoors. (We don't, because it's an old building, and a rented apartment which we consider leaving every year. At least there's air condition at work.)

[dejla]

Virtual hugs. I totally agree about the weather. It needs to go now.

[jekesta]

I'm really sorry you're suffering. I hate the weather, although with a lot less reason than you it still makes me miserable and tired and broken down. I hope it lightens up soon.

[nineveh_uk]

Sorry you're having a tough time of it. I hope that your neck of the woods has been one of the ones that's seen some relief from the heat this weekend.